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 - i dun hv any title for my post now... im totally lost.. beyond what i had predicted.. i have to find my self back..  n have to do it quick... if not i will be totally lost for the rest of my sem... n dis sem is only a month away to go... elly... u hv to pick up urself where u lost it yesterday... 

 - several things had happen... last saturday i took my FAR test... didnt get enough sleep the nite before... n other nite before that... have make lost everything... i feel so dem sleppy while taking the test.. n i decided that... hantar jela... wateva happen... all of it is my fault... i've been thinking of u all nite long.. did even think to study or even sleep..

 - my brain is suffering cz i've been  thinking bout so many things now.. thinking of u... thinking of my study.. and i've been thinking bout.. how my life will turn out... 

 - i've been hearing several songs that are directly dedicated to me... but this really me...

Now, now she loved me, shawty I loved her 

Used to jump up in the maybach and roll out 

Used to care, she used to share 

The love that she used to give me can't be found 

I lost my way, she said she'd stay 

And lately I've been sleeping with a ghost 

My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold 

That was before a great depression kicked in and rocked us 

And that was before the hurricane came in and stopped us 

I told you to leave, but you lied to me 

When you said that, "baby no worries I promise to get us back". 

I know sorries, just wouldn't do it 

Her heart is obliterated, I'm trying to travel through 

But it's like moving mountains... 

It's like moving mountains... 

But I keep climbing and hoping things would change 

And the sky turns gray, and the water from the rain washes progress away. 

It's like moving mountains... 

It's like moving mountains... 

Why you just leave me? 

Just leave me be. 

Just leave me. 

Just leave me be. 

Why you just leave me 

just leave me be. 

Why you just leave me 

just leave me be, ooh. 

She, she don't touch me, I don't touch her 

We rarely even ever say a word. 

I really want to give her everything she deserves 

But the bad took away the good. 

She thinks that I'm full of it, arguments, always pissed, man I'm tired 

Every kiss that i miss, girl you know I'm trying. 

You never believe when I say, and I never believe it when you say 

I love you, and I shouldn't complain about it 

I should take it like a man and walk up out it 

Cause we will never be the same, ooh. 

I've been standing in gas, and you have been the flame.