it has been such an emotional week...maybe...even though now that im alone...i do feel like now im breaking someone's heart...i shouldn't do that...can i be really alone...??? like sitting in the corner of an empty room...no cell phone with me...no broadband...no lappy(which i really dont have now)....feels like alone is better than hurting someone...unintentionally....
i feel like screaming out my feelings....u know what...i haven't been crying since we broke up...which i don't know why...is it just i don't have any sad feelings anymore...or just that i dont let my heart cry anymore...i wnt to cry...but i just cant...i really hate this feelings....
now....i do have the feelings of shutting down all connection...means deactivate my FB...turn off all my cells...but i know...that it will not change a thing...not a single things...i will always be haunted by him...by u....
October 23, 2009
October 10, 2009
sorry...
i have just realize what im not good about...im really not good in keeping my promises...i feel so damm guilty right now...im hoping that u'll understand me..this is not what i've been planned...
i'll try to pay back my promises k..?? haih...
back to post on what happen to me this 1 whole week...
kitorg 1 class dah diberikan 1 assgmnt which is to complete kire mcm mock up meeting that we have submit it by thursday last week...so the shooting for that video was done by Tuesday rsnyer....evryone has done their job except for me...i was assgn to be like the 'camerawomen' and also edit the video...bkn la wt keje2 editing mcm stdnt multimedia wt pn..just a simple editing guna movie maker...had sum xperience guna movie makers from our previous video that we have to do for our ARABIC language video...so igt ok la...finished up editing by 4am last thursday...n the vidoe have to be submitted before 12pm on tha same day...ko gile!! tue 1 class nyer keje kot...10% utk sume org...xsampai at nk hampakan sume org...long story cut short...mase nk publish the video...blh lak la si movie maker tue ckp xleh nk publish...maybe sbb dah smpai 40min of video kot..ko gile!! mampus aku..!!!! then idea pn xkuar sbb dah almost 5am mase tue...tibe2 idea dtg utk publish video tue ikut year script...haih...slamat la blh...and the best thing is....on the same day...at 12...i've to seat for my ARABIC language test...for arab we dun have any finals...so our grade are solely depends on our assmnt mark...n aku xstdy langsung seyh..!!! n esk pg nyer...sesampainyer di uitm...aku g merendahkn dri aku kt sume org suh diorg tlg aku..especially my hsemate...which has been inform about that mlm sblm tue lg..hhahaha...n pada masa test aku pn menjalankn kerja2 amal...which is almost sume jwpn aku tiru...n dgn mgunakan pelbagai gaya...hahaha....nad siap ckp muka aku nmpk sgt evil mase aku meniru..hahahah....n the 2nd best thg is that....ptg tue plak i've solo presentation utk subject AUDIT..hahaha...slide xwt lg...bc article pn sket je...otak penat...bdn penat...tp still mencari idea mcm mane nk wt slide n present tue...so aku pn call Kuni tny die sape yg presnt utk class die for the same article...slamat la group die yg present...n aku pn pinjam slide Matki utk wt rujukan...aku still wt slide aku sndiri k..??? hahaha...n mase present tue..aku dgn suka ati aku...aku present bagaikan xde lecturer pn dlm class tue...hahahha...bt still dpt pujian seyh...kembang kejap..hahahahha....
actually i have plan so many things this coming weeks...which one of it is going back to ipoh on 17 & 18...tp tibe2 td miss henny ckp...on 19 ade presentation...OMG!!! bile kau nk blk ipoh elly....nk blk on 24 & 25...on 28 ade ppr...hhhahaahhaha...gelak yg sgt x ikhlas...aku rindu ipoh la ngek....haih...from the final exam timetable...i can see that im not going back to ipoh till end of semester..till my last day of paper...haih...dah la on 1dec nk start practical...xlame la kt ipoh! S**T....n disbb kan all of this unplanned events...there are so many of my promises n plans that i've be scheduling have to be cancelled....*sigh*
p/s : still apologizing...sorry sorry sorry...
i'll try to pay back my promises k..?? haih...
back to post on what happen to me this 1 whole week...
kitorg 1 class dah diberikan 1 assgmnt which is to complete kire mcm mock up meeting that we have submit it by thursday last week...so the shooting for that video was done by Tuesday rsnyer....evryone has done their job except for me...i was assgn to be like the 'camerawomen' and also edit the video...bkn la wt keje2 editing mcm stdnt multimedia wt pn..just a simple editing guna movie maker...had sum xperience guna movie makers from our previous video that we have to do for our ARABIC language video...so igt ok la...finished up editing by 4am last thursday...n the vidoe have to be submitted before 12pm on tha same day...ko gile!! tue 1 class nyer keje kot...10% utk sume org...xsampai at nk hampakan sume org...long story cut short...mase nk publish the video...blh lak la si movie maker tue ckp xleh nk publish...maybe sbb dah smpai 40min of video kot..ko gile!! mampus aku..!!!! then idea pn xkuar sbb dah almost 5am mase tue...tibe2 idea dtg utk publish video tue ikut year script...haih...slamat la blh...and the best thing is....on the same day...at 12...i've to seat for my ARABIC language test...for arab we dun have any finals...so our grade are solely depends on our assmnt mark...n aku xstdy langsung seyh..!!! n esk pg nyer...sesampainyer di uitm...aku g merendahkn dri aku kt sume org suh diorg tlg aku..especially my hsemate...which has been inform about that mlm sblm tue lg..hhahaha...n pada masa test aku pn menjalankn kerja2 amal...which is almost sume jwpn aku tiru...n dgn mgunakan pelbagai gaya...hahaha....nad siap ckp muka aku nmpk sgt evil mase aku meniru..hahahah....n the 2nd best thg is that....ptg tue plak i've solo presentation utk subject AUDIT..hahaha...slide xwt lg...bc article pn sket je...otak penat...bdn penat...tp still mencari idea mcm mane nk wt slide n present tue...so aku pn call Kuni tny die sape yg presnt utk class die for the same article...slamat la group die yg present...n aku pn pinjam slide Matki utk wt rujukan...aku still wt slide aku sndiri k..??? hahaha...n mase present tue..aku dgn suka ati aku...aku present bagaikan xde lecturer pn dlm class tue...hahahha...bt still dpt pujian seyh...kembang kejap..hahahahha....
actually i have plan so many things this coming weeks...which one of it is going back to ipoh on 17 & 18...tp tibe2 td miss henny ckp...on 19 ade presentation...OMG!!! bile kau nk blk ipoh elly....nk blk on 24 & 25...on 28 ade ppr...hhhahaahhaha...gelak yg sgt x ikhlas...aku rindu ipoh la ngek....haih...from the final exam timetable...i can see that im not going back to ipoh till end of semester..till my last day of paper...haih...dah la on 1dec nk start practical...xlame la kt ipoh! S**T....n disbb kan all of this unplanned events...there are so many of my promises n plans that i've be scheduling have to be cancelled....*sigh*
p/s : still apologizing...sorry sorry sorry...
October 9, 2009
Exam Timetable
exam timetable dah keluar....maknenyer....FINAL dah dekat!!!!! F**k...!!!!!!
28/10/09 - FAR 500
2/11/09 - CRG 530
5/11/09 - CRG 520
9/11/09 - AIS 510
12/11/09 - AUD 571
the gap for this sem ok la...compared to last 2 sem...but kesian kt batch part 4...dgr cite diorg tkde gap...n siap ade 2 paper on 1 day...gile ah..dah la paper part 4 mantap2 sume...
nie schedule yg terkeluar dr exam...
1/11/09 - nk g S.Alam...kononnyer ade hal keluarge...so..mcm mane..????
p/s: ade paper on 28....tkt tkde time nk stdy...dah mula ade rs berslh yg teramat sgt...kalau lps final blh x..??? plsss...
28/10/09 - FAR 500
2/11/09 - CRG 530
5/11/09 - CRG 520
9/11/09 - AIS 510
12/11/09 - AUD 571
the gap for this sem ok la...compared to last 2 sem...but kesian kt batch part 4...dgr cite diorg tkde gap...n siap ade 2 paper on 1 day...gile ah..dah la paper part 4 mantap2 sume...
nie schedule yg terkeluar dr exam...
1/11/09 - nk g S.Alam...kononnyer ade hal keluarge...so..mcm mane..????
p/s: ade paper on 28....tkt tkde time nk stdy...dah mula ade rs berslh yg teramat sgt...kalau lps final blh x..??? plsss...
October 4, 2009
Busy +++
Tfor the next 3weeks...all accountancy student of UiTM Segamat will be f**king busy...hahaha...we dun blame the lecturer...but that's the fact of being a degree student lorh..haih...
5/10/09 - Listening Test Arabic Language
6/10/09 - Quiz CRG 530 - Co's Secretary
7/10/09 - BEL assignment submission date
8/10/09 - CRG 530 Video Submission date n Test Arabic
9/10/09 - Free but ade class
10/10/09 - Free (cz saturday)
11/10/09 - Free (cz sunday)
12/10/09 - Free but ade class
13/10/09 - Free but ade class
14/10/09 - Presentation 2 BEL (Public Speaking)
15/10/09 - Presentation n Submission AUD (our own internal audit department)
16/10/09 - Presentation AIS n Test 2 FAR n also submit outline BEL
17/10/09 - Miss Syuhada wedding! (very important)
18/10/09 - Free which is our resting day
19/10/09 - Test 2 AUD
20/10/09 - Free but ade class
21/10/09 - Free but ade class
22/10/09 - Free but ade class
23/10/09 - Submission date for CRG 530 (gile byk bende nk kene wt) n maybe wanna go to visit sumone...
conclusion utk hidup sbg pelajar account ialah = SUPER BUSY!!!
5/10/09 - Listening Test Arabic Language
6/10/09 - Quiz CRG 530 - Co's Secretary
7/10/09 - BEL assignment submission date
8/10/09 - CRG 530 Video Submission date n Test Arabic
9/10/09 - Free but ade class
10/10/09 - Free (cz saturday)
11/10/09 - Free (cz sunday)
12/10/09 - Free but ade class
13/10/09 - Free but ade class
14/10/09 - Presentation 2 BEL (Public Speaking)
15/10/09 - Presentation n Submission AUD (our own internal audit department)
16/10/09 - Presentation AIS n Test 2 FAR n also submit outline BEL
17/10/09 - Miss Syuhada wedding! (very important)
18/10/09 - Free which is our resting day
19/10/09 - Test 2 AUD
20/10/09 - Free but ade class
21/10/09 - Free but ade class
22/10/09 - Free but ade class
23/10/09 - Submission date for CRG 530 (gile byk bende nk kene wt) n maybe wanna go to visit sumone...
conclusion utk hidup sbg pelajar account ialah = SUPER BUSY!!!
emergency
i broke one of my phone...
i wont on any of my num..(yg korang tau la)..
but u all can text my housematesss to cantact me k..??
but as for my family n lovers...
u know how to contact me aite...??
i wont on any of my num..(yg korang tau la)..
but u all can text my housematesss to cantact me k..??
but as for my family n lovers...
u know how to contact me aite...??
October 2, 2009
.......
actually there are so many things that i want to write...but i dont think that any of them is relevant...there are some things that we can share with others...but there are also some things that are just meant to be a secret...but i know 1 thing for sure..i can never hide anything from my besties SLEAZY...hahaha...ur so good man...but im so not ready for it yet...n i do really mean it..
sometime as im trying to be as secretive as i am now...im actually revealing more and more to them...i just cant hide what im feeling...doing all the things that i used to do before...doesnt make any different..i should be better..but im not that strong...i still need a friend that can understand my situation..not someone who criticize as much as they can...life can be that complicated man...u can only understand when it happen to u...and plz la...stop being so sarcastic....!!!
friends....im back to the old me...and im sorry for that...for them who doesnt like me to be the old me...
sometime as im trying to be as secretive as i am now...im actually revealing more and more to them...i just cant hide what im feeling...doing all the things that i used to do before...doesnt make any different..i should be better..but im not that strong...i still need a friend that can understand my situation..not someone who criticize as much as they can...life can be that complicated man...u can only understand when it happen to u...and plz la...stop being so sarcastic....!!!
friends....im back to the old me...and im sorry for that...for them who doesnt like me to be the old me...
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